I was massively ill on Sunday and haven't been like that for a long time, so getting back to running has taken it's time. Tonight, I ventured out. I wanted to enjoy the sunset, Christmas lights in the neighborhood, and to really work on my form. I planned on a slow, easy run, about 30 minutes. But I hit the watch, covered it up, and ran. Felt awesome. Through streets, on sidewalks, by a park, and a couple schools. Just me and streets. I love the feeling it gives me. To just run. At any time, I can put on my shoes and go. I don't need all the gadgets, just roads. It's freeing and exciting. You get to experience the world through different eyes. You see the kids playing hockey when it's 40 degrees out. The random little ones playing with their Santa lawn ornaments. The cats in the windows staring and me and judging me no less. The few strangers who smile when you pass as they walk their dogs. The "stop and stares" from male drivers (which are few and far between). And all the while, it's just me and road. My mind gets to wander, to pray, to get away from what life has waiting for me when I return. I have found nothing yet like running. You can make it a challenge or an adventure or a fun run. Anyway you want it, it's yours.
Somehow at the end, I am relieved, rejuvenated, and ready to conquer anything. It's like, "okay, the run is over. Now I can do X, Y, and Z."
At a time when the world is all a buzz and everything is go, go, go, I took 45 minutes to JUST RUN. As Robert Frost once wrote, "And that has made all the difference."
Run On!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Runners can't be stopped
I ran the St. Louis Rock and Roll Half Marathon this past Sunday. It was my 7th half marathon....not my worst time, not my best. A few things hit me while I was running this 13.1 mile course.
#1. Runners are a unique breed. If you have ever run, you are a runner. You are unique. You have legs, you have stamina, strength, ability. There were even wheelchair participants in the race....runners.
#2. Running is always there. I got sidelined in late September with a back injury. 2 weeks no running whatsoever. My nightmare! But I learned some valuable lessons through that trial. God took that opportunity to show me that he should be #1. After all, he gave me the ability run and he can justly take it away if it replaces him. A Nike Ad I saw once says, "The roads are always open." They are. Put your faith and hope in something solid and real...like Jesus. Make him your priority today.
#3. Runners cannot be stopped. As I looked around on Sunday and took in the atmosphere, I realized that runners are crazy, stupid, insane, noble, courageous, worthy, loyal, and determined. Let me give you some examples -
1. My friend Nicole had a problem with her tibia and was in a boot not long before the race. She slowly got back to running order and was determined to run the race. She did, she finished with a great time and rocked it!
2. My friend Jaidra, who I vb coach with, rolled her ankle (we're talking black, blue, and huge - Cankles anyone?) 1 week before the race. She was on crutches, ran 3 miles the day before and finished her first half with an impressive 2 hour finish.
3. My brother Ryan didn't really "train" per say for the race. A few 3-5 milers here and there and he finished with a 2:20 time. Impressive. I wonder who else can just show up and run 13.1 miles?!
4. My uncle Marty just finished the Chicago Marathon at the young age of 60. He is truly an inspiration. He decided last minute to run the half and had a 2:11 time. Nice.
5. Scott, Medals for Mettles guy, finished his probably millionth run and I'm sure donated his medal to a child in need. He made me awesome signs for Kailey Wilmarth when I raised money for her in April. What a heart he has and truly worthy cause.
6. Guy running for the Determination American Cancer Society and had about 50 ribbons in memory of and in honor of those affected by cancer. He ran for them.
7. Lady on the side of the road wearing her race day bib, cheering on runners. She was wearing a boot, but she still came and did all she could do.
8. Several pregnant ladies running- this will be me someday!!
9. Old guy after the race told me I was his pacer. An honor but I feel bad I affected his time =)
10. Ladies running with signs for their friend who died from cancer. "We miss you Annie and love you." Almost made me cry.
11. And finally, yours truly, still technically injured with a ligament strain. "Shouldn't push it" is what the doc said although I was cleared to do the race.
**I also want to note that my friend, Carrie, recently ran the Denver Rock and Roll after having her 3rd child in January and being a stay at home mom. There really are no excuses. Great job Carrie!
How is this possible?! I think what it comes down to is your drive and passion. If there's a will, there's a way. For me, it's several things. I run for One, as in the title of this blog. I run because Christ gave me the ability and as Eric Liddell put it in Chariots of Fire, "When I run, I feel God's pleasure." I believe before that he said, "God made me fast." God did no such thing in me, but that hasn't stopped me from lacing up my shoes and hitting the road. My love for Christ drives me but I am solely inspired by his unconditional love for me which I can freely accept.
Running is my release. It brings me back to life. When I don't know what else to do, I can run. I ran for the American Cancer Society because Dad told us that we have been given much and thus much is asked of us. I ran for Kailey Wilmarth because she was an amazing athlete and I wanted to run because she couldn't. Both of them get to run in heaven today (it may sound corny, but I like to believe it=). Pain cannot stop running. Death cannot stop running. Sickness cannot stop running. Injuries cannot stop running. Odds cannot stop running.
If you are a runner (meaning you've run at some point in your life...maybe to your car in a storm or to catch a bus), then you cannot be stopped. You have the power to do whatever you want. What drives you? Where is your passion? What can you do that no one else can? What is your 'release'? Remember, the roads are always open....
Happy running =)
#1. Runners are a unique breed. If you have ever run, you are a runner. You are unique. You have legs, you have stamina, strength, ability. There were even wheelchair participants in the race....runners.
#2. Running is always there. I got sidelined in late September with a back injury. 2 weeks no running whatsoever. My nightmare! But I learned some valuable lessons through that trial. God took that opportunity to show me that he should be #1. After all, he gave me the ability run and he can justly take it away if it replaces him. A Nike Ad I saw once says, "The roads are always open." They are. Put your faith and hope in something solid and real...like Jesus. Make him your priority today.
#3. Runners cannot be stopped. As I looked around on Sunday and took in the atmosphere, I realized that runners are crazy, stupid, insane, noble, courageous, worthy, loyal, and determined. Let me give you some examples -
1. My friend Nicole had a problem with her tibia and was in a boot not long before the race. She slowly got back to running order and was determined to run the race. She did, she finished with a great time and rocked it!
2. My friend Jaidra, who I vb coach with, rolled her ankle (we're talking black, blue, and huge - Cankles anyone?) 1 week before the race. She was on crutches, ran 3 miles the day before and finished her first half with an impressive 2 hour finish.
3. My brother Ryan didn't really "train" per say for the race. A few 3-5 milers here and there and he finished with a 2:20 time. Impressive. I wonder who else can just show up and run 13.1 miles?!
4. My uncle Marty just finished the Chicago Marathon at the young age of 60. He is truly an inspiration. He decided last minute to run the half and had a 2:11 time. Nice.
5. Scott, Medals for Mettles guy, finished his probably millionth run and I'm sure donated his medal to a child in need. He made me awesome signs for Kailey Wilmarth when I raised money for her in April. What a heart he has and truly worthy cause.
6. Guy running for the Determination American Cancer Society and had about 50 ribbons in memory of and in honor of those affected by cancer. He ran for them.
7. Lady on the side of the road wearing her race day bib, cheering on runners. She was wearing a boot, but she still came and did all she could do.
8. Several pregnant ladies running- this will be me someday!!
9. Old guy after the race told me I was his pacer. An honor but I feel bad I affected his time =)
10. Ladies running with signs for their friend who died from cancer. "We miss you Annie and love you." Almost made me cry.
11. And finally, yours truly, still technically injured with a ligament strain. "Shouldn't push it" is what the doc said although I was cleared to do the race.
**I also want to note that my friend, Carrie, recently ran the Denver Rock and Roll after having her 3rd child in January and being a stay at home mom. There really are no excuses. Great job Carrie!
How is this possible?! I think what it comes down to is your drive and passion. If there's a will, there's a way. For me, it's several things. I run for One, as in the title of this blog. I run because Christ gave me the ability and as Eric Liddell put it in Chariots of Fire, "When I run, I feel God's pleasure." I believe before that he said, "God made me fast." God did no such thing in me, but that hasn't stopped me from lacing up my shoes and hitting the road. My love for Christ drives me but I am solely inspired by his unconditional love for me which I can freely accept.
Running is my release. It brings me back to life. When I don't know what else to do, I can run. I ran for the American Cancer Society because Dad told us that we have been given much and thus much is asked of us. I ran for Kailey Wilmarth because she was an amazing athlete and I wanted to run because she couldn't. Both of them get to run in heaven today (it may sound corny, but I like to believe it=). Pain cannot stop running. Death cannot stop running. Sickness cannot stop running. Injuries cannot stop running. Odds cannot stop running.
If you are a runner (meaning you've run at some point in your life...maybe to your car in a storm or to catch a bus), then you cannot be stopped. You have the power to do whatever you want. What drives you? Where is your passion? What can you do that no one else can? What is your 'release'? Remember, the roads are always open....
Happy running =)
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
What I've been working on....
Okay, so I'm a frequent now at Goodwill. It's just plain smart shopping! I don't always buy and to find decent deals, you have to go 2-3 times a week. I'm sort of a fanatic. When I do find something, it's usually great! My husband's birthday gifts were Goodwill and Pinterest inspired....all for around $2 a piece!!! Also, fyi for you Target lovers, Goodwill often gets Target's clearance items with tags still on them! Hello $4 Mossimo black dress!!!!
Here's what I've been up too - Birthday gift for Nathan. Going in his music studio
Purchased - Young Reader's Bible from Goodwill $2
1 Black Frame - gift card from Kohl's - FREE (had the other two frames)
I printed vintage looking drums on certain Bible verses that I cut out. I chose one from Psalms, Romans, and I think Luke. I saw the idea on Etsy but knew I could make it myself. I'm so pleased with the outcome!
Here's what I've been up too - Birthday gift for Nathan. Going in his music studio
Purchased - Young Reader's Bible from Goodwill $2
1 Black Frame - gift card from Kohl's - FREE (had the other two frames)
I printed vintage looking drums on certain Bible verses that I cut out. I chose one from Psalms, Romans, and I think Luke. I saw the idea on Etsy but knew I could make it myself. I'm so pleased with the outcome!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Without training but with Christ
I am not allowed to run right due to my back injury. Back strain or something is what he tells me. Cause = not sure, but need to give it a rest as of right now. This past week was pretty humbling. Can't run, hard to sit, difficult to put shoes on, and the list goes on. I feel, as I've stated before that God is using this time to teach me about him being 1st. Getting to know him all the time, not just the time when I need him. On another note, today marks the 2 year anniversary since Dad died. How could we be 2 years out from that time of my life? It seems surreal, but I am thankful for this time.
What do these 2 things have in common? Running and race and dad passing away? Not much on the surface, but before Dad died, he told my mom for me to remember "patience." Patience when you have nothing else. Patience when I was worried, frustrated, and at my wits end. Which all happen a lot! Dad knew that I would need encouragement in the little things in life that I always make into huge, boulders. Patience has been my mantra this past week. I can't run right now. So what....I'd rather be able to run the rest of my life and take 2 weeks off right now to get re-focused and centered on what truly matters.
What if it were all gone? What if I could no longer run? What if I lost the very thing most dear to me? Um, excuse me, what if I lost my dad?! Does it suck? Yep. Is it fair? Nope. Does life go on? Yes. Can life still be great and rewarding despite death and pain and suffering? I have learned that the answer is definitely a YES! But how can this be when you've lost your father and piece of who you came from? Well, the power and blood of Jesus Christ covers all the crap this world can give me. Christians will ultimately experience the same pain everyone experiences....we just know where who to lean on when we have nothing else.
What do these 2 things have in common? Running and race and dad passing away? Not much on the surface, but before Dad died, he told my mom for me to remember "patience." Patience when you have nothing else. Patience when I was worried, frustrated, and at my wits end. Which all happen a lot! Dad knew that I would need encouragement in the little things in life that I always make into huge, boulders. Patience has been my mantra this past week. I can't run right now. So what....I'd rather be able to run the rest of my life and take 2 weeks off right now to get re-focused and centered on what truly matters.
What if it were all gone? What if I could no longer run? What if I lost the very thing most dear to me? Um, excuse me, what if I lost my dad?! Does it suck? Yep. Is it fair? Nope. Does life go on? Yes. Can life still be great and rewarding despite death and pain and suffering? I have learned that the answer is definitely a YES! But how can this be when you've lost your father and piece of who you came from? Well, the power and blood of Jesus Christ covers all the crap this world can give me. Christians will ultimately experience the same pain everyone experiences....we just know where who to lean on when we have nothing else.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Training....to a screeching halt, but with some revelations.
5 weeks to go. 35 days or so and I am injured. BIG TIME. Tried to pick up a laundry basket on Saturday morning and couldn't stand back up. Diagnosis: disk strain. 2 weeks, absolutely no running. Wha?! How in the world am I going to do this. I forget what sweat feels like. I hate it. I hate everything about it. Less food, little exercise, zero sense of accomplishment. But I am hard on my body. Way too hard. I don't take breaks...well, I am now!
I haven't been in the Bible recently. My mind is sidetracked. I "find" other stuff to do like things before God. In a way, I am self centered. It's always about my workout for the day or getting stuff done for school. Truth is, I have the time. I don't make the time. Anybody feel me? God takes a back seat. And now, when I need healing and want him to hear my prayers the most, I keep thinking, "Why should he bother?". You didn't care about getting to know him when things were going "your" way. I believe God can teach me something through this, if I let him. If I take this time to slow down and truly get the center of my life back in the center.
The Lord speaks to me in various ways and often times, it is through songs. There is a song on Christian radio and XM right now called, "Fall Apart" by Josh Wilson. I don't particularly care for the song but it has been on non-stop since my injury. I even started the car and my Christian station was on and I turned it to XM, saying out loud, "I bet Fall Apart is on right now." Yep, of course. Thanks God for the wake up call!!!
Here are some of the lyrics:
Why in the world did I think I could
Only get to know you when my life was good
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give You praise
Now it all seems upside down
‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart
I don’t know how long this will last
I’m praying for the pain to pass
But maybe this is the best thing that
Has ever happened to me
I don't think this is the best thing that has happened to me. But I do believe that God has gotten my attention and said, "Hang on sister. You need me. You can't do this all alone. It's okay to take a break. Give yourself some credit. But I want you. I want the best of you. Not the last minute prayers, only call on me when you need me best of you. I want all of you because I made you and you are mine."
I give thanks to all who have remembered me in prayers recently. I pray that this injury passes me quickly. I also pray that you will take the time this week to get to know your heavenly Father just because He loves you and cares for you so much. Okay, sorry for the sap. But I'm being reflective. Thanks for reading.
I haven't been in the Bible recently. My mind is sidetracked. I "find" other stuff to do like things before God. In a way, I am self centered. It's always about my workout for the day or getting stuff done for school. Truth is, I have the time. I don't make the time. Anybody feel me? God takes a back seat. And now, when I need healing and want him to hear my prayers the most, I keep thinking, "Why should he bother?". You didn't care about getting to know him when things were going "your" way. I believe God can teach me something through this, if I let him. If I take this time to slow down and truly get the center of my life back in the center.
The Lord speaks to me in various ways and often times, it is through songs. There is a song on Christian radio and XM right now called, "Fall Apart" by Josh Wilson. I don't particularly care for the song but it has been on non-stop since my injury. I even started the car and my Christian station was on and I turned it to XM, saying out loud, "I bet Fall Apart is on right now." Yep, of course. Thanks God for the wake up call!!!
Here are some of the lyrics:
Why in the world did I think I could
Only get to know you when my life was good
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give You praise
Now it all seems upside down
‘Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel You now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
And somehow still have all I need
God, I want to know You more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find You when I fall apart
I don’t know how long this will last
I’m praying for the pain to pass
But maybe this is the best thing that
Has ever happened to me
I don't think this is the best thing that has happened to me. But I do believe that God has gotten my attention and said, "Hang on sister. You need me. You can't do this all alone. It's okay to take a break. Give yourself some credit. But I want you. I want the best of you. Not the last minute prayers, only call on me when you need me best of you. I want all of you because I made you and you are mine."
I give thanks to all who have remembered me in prayers recently. I pray that this injury passes me quickly. I also pray that you will take the time this week to get to know your heavenly Father just because He loves you and cares for you so much. Okay, sorry for the sap. But I'm being reflective. Thanks for reading.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Training week 4
This week was horrible! I was gone 3 nights until 10pm and training was so difficult with a schedule like that! Still got most of it though =) One and pretty much the only perk to being part-time.
Monday - 3.06 miles - 6x400 run (made it longer) morning run in 27 minutes
Tuesday - CX - Jillian Michaels fat burner w/o weights - 45 minutes
Wednesday - 5.75 miles in 57 min. (supposed to be 6 mile run. I got bored =)
Thursday - CX - Ran 1.7 miles in 17 min; lifting 15 minutes
Friday - REST DAY!!! Much needed!
Saturday - 6 miles - 1 hour. It was probably little over 6. I ran on our new bike trail and it was awesome! I went down 31 minutes and back so probably just barely over 6. I'll take it!
Sunday - Jillian DVD w/ weights 45 min. Going to feel this one tomorrow!
Tomorrow starts week 5. Only 5 more weeks left of training! I am running a 6k in St Louis next Sunday morning and get to finish at Busch Stadium home plate. Who else can say that?! Love it! Here's to happy running!
Monday - 3.06 miles - 6x400 run (made it longer) morning run in 27 minutes
Tuesday - CX - Jillian Michaels fat burner w/o weights - 45 minutes
Wednesday - 5.75 miles in 57 min. (supposed to be 6 mile run. I got bored =)
Thursday - CX - Ran 1.7 miles in 17 min; lifting 15 minutes
Friday - REST DAY!!! Much needed!
Saturday - 6 miles - 1 hour. It was probably little over 6. I ran on our new bike trail and it was awesome! I went down 31 minutes and back so probably just barely over 6. I'll take it!
Sunday - Jillian DVD w/ weights 45 min. Going to feel this one tomorrow!
Tomorrow starts week 5. Only 5 more weeks left of training! I am running a 6k in St Louis next Sunday morning and get to finish at Busch Stadium home plate. Who else can say that?! Love it! Here's to happy running!
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Training Week 3
Oh my, we've been busy. Volleyball games started, Nathan is preparing for fall kick-off at the church. So neither of us is home right now, however, this Labor Day weekend, we have been quite productive! I bought a bunch and I mean a bunch of craft project materials. I'm now obsessed with Pinterest and if you aren't on it, don't be. It's like a drug. I can't stop "pinning" things. But I have made some headway in my projects category and will post pics soon!
Okay so back to running, the real reason you're here...
Monday - 3.20 mile tempo 4x800, 27.40 I was flying. Felt good.
Tuesday - Ripped in 30 Jillian Michaels DVD Week 3 27 min
Wednesday - 4.60 miles, 46 min on treadmill. ( I feel the need to mention that I usually run outside in the morning, but Tuesday on the news they reported some old guy picked up a young girl during daylight hours at gunpoint and drove her to the nearest Metro station - 1mile from my house - and took her phone and left her there. So Nathan is worried so that means I got up at 4:25 am! to go to my gym and run, come back, shower, eat, head 40 minutes to work. I supposed to run 5 but 4.6 at that hour felt fine enough!
Thursday - yay September! Eliptical 25 min, treadmill 15 min run/walk, lifting 15 min
Friday - Ripped in 30 Week 1 - 35 min
Saturday - 9.48 miles, 1 hour 32 min. Supposed to be 10 but apparently I forgot to double check Map My Run!
Sunday - Bob Harper's Kettlebell workout 45 minutes
Now, I need to rest. I'm tired from typing!
Okay so back to running, the real reason you're here...
Monday - 3.20 mile tempo 4x800, 27.40 I was flying. Felt good.
Tuesday - Ripped in 30 Jillian Michaels DVD Week 3 27 min
Wednesday - 4.60 miles, 46 min on treadmill. ( I feel the need to mention that I usually run outside in the morning, but Tuesday on the news they reported some old guy picked up a young girl during daylight hours at gunpoint and drove her to the nearest Metro station - 1mile from my house - and took her phone and left her there. So Nathan is worried so that means I got up at 4:25 am! to go to my gym and run, come back, shower, eat, head 40 minutes to work. I supposed to run 5 but 4.6 at that hour felt fine enough!
Thursday - yay September! Eliptical 25 min, treadmill 15 min run/walk, lifting 15 min
Friday - Ripped in 30 Week 1 - 35 min
Saturday - 9.48 miles, 1 hour 32 min. Supposed to be 10 but apparently I forgot to double check Map My Run!
Sunday - Bob Harper's Kettlebell workout 45 minutes
Now, I need to rest. I'm tired from typing!
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Training Week 2
Long week - glad I'm finally writing this on Sunday night =)
Monday - 4x800 - 3.27 miles 29.15 minutes
Tuesday - CX - Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 - Week 2 35 minutes; 15 minutes of lifting at school
Wednesday - 4 mile tempo run - 3.93 miles in 34.47 minutes
Thursday - CX - 18 min run, 15 min workout at school
--Step ups with overhead press, lunges with twisting abs, kettlebell swings, skaters, pushups, jump squats
Friday - CX - Jillian Michaels 6 week 6 pack Level 1 - 33 minutes
Saturday - 1 hour 18 minutes - 8.04 miles
Sunday - Eliptical 20 minutes, 15 min walk/run - 1.12 miles; lifting - chest fly, lunges, plie squats with overhead extensions, bicep curls, mountain climbers, kickbacks, roman chair abs.
Onto another week!
Monday - 4x800 - 3.27 miles 29.15 minutes
Tuesday - CX - Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 - Week 2 35 minutes; 15 minutes of lifting at school
Wednesday - 4 mile tempo run - 3.93 miles in 34.47 minutes
Thursday - CX - 18 min run, 15 min workout at school
--Step ups with overhead press, lunges with twisting abs, kettlebell swings, skaters, pushups, jump squats
Friday - CX - Jillian Michaels 6 week 6 pack Level 1 - 33 minutes
Saturday - 1 hour 18 minutes - 8.04 miles
Sunday - Eliptical 20 minutes, 15 min walk/run - 1.12 miles; lifting - chest fly, lunges, plie squats with overhead extensions, bicep curls, mountain climbers, kickbacks, roman chair abs.
Onto another week!
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Training week 1
Wednesday - 3 mile tempo. Not real sure it was a tempo run, I just ran it. 3.14 miles in 27.45. Not too bad and it was blistering hot. So that's done.
Thursday - Ripped in 30 DVD Level 1 - 35 minutes. This is sort of a break day for me but still feeling like I'm doing something. It alternates 3 min of strength, 2 min of cardio, 1 min of abs.
Friday - supposed to be a rest day or 30 min CX training, but I am exhausted and knew I didn't want to run on Saturday. So I put on my shoes around 1:30 before vb practice started and hit the road. Thinking the whole time, just get this done and you have the whole weekend to yourself!
I ran 6.40 miles (a little overkill on accident) in 1 hour. I haven't ran for an hour in over a month so glad to know I still got it in 90 degree weather.
May CX train today and run easy tomorrow. Can't decide!
Thursday - Ripped in 30 DVD Level 1 - 35 minutes. This is sort of a break day for me but still feeling like I'm doing something. It alternates 3 min of strength, 2 min of cardio, 1 min of abs.
Friday - supposed to be a rest day or 30 min CX training, but I am exhausted and knew I didn't want to run on Saturday. So I put on my shoes around 1:30 before vb practice started and hit the road. Thinking the whole time, just get this done and you have the whole weekend to yourself!
I ran 6.40 miles (a little overkill on accident) in 1 hour. I haven't ran for an hour in over a month so glad to know I still got it in 90 degree weather.
May CX train today and run easy tomorrow. Can't decide!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Day 2 of training
I'm already tired of this...well, not really but I just started back to school and getting on a schedule is difficult! Day 2 is CX Training -
Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 - Level 3
3 minutes of strength, 2 min of cardio, 1 min abs - 3 circuits
Done til tomorrow!
Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 - Level 3
3 minutes of strength, 2 min of cardio, 1 min abs - 3 circuits
Done til tomorrow!
Training starts!
Yesterday, I started training for my 7th half marathon which will be the St. Louis Rock and Roll Half Marathon near the end of October. I'm going to try to update this day to day, or at least week to week.
Day 1 - 4x400, track workout
Warm up - 4:30 min jog
4-400's - approx 2 min a piece with 2 minute recovery inbetween
Cool down - 4:30 min jog
Total - 22 min - 2.5 miles
I also did some high knees, butt kicks, crunches, squat jumps for about 10 min
Day 2 is CX Training for 30 minutes.
Day 1 - 4x400, track workout
Warm up - 4:30 min jog
4-400's - approx 2 min a piece with 2 minute recovery inbetween
Cool down - 4:30 min jog
Total - 22 min - 2.5 miles
I also did some high knees, butt kicks, crunches, squat jumps for about 10 min
Day 2 is CX Training for 30 minutes.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Good advice
I've been struggling recently with a lot. Wondering if I'm in the right profession, why God has me where he has me, am I just spinning my wheels or am I going somewhere, and missing my dad along the way. I sometimes feel like I am in a depressed stage of my life. Not really depressed, but in a funk. I cried everyday to work this week for various reasons and I can't get a stronghold on what God wants me to hear, learn, ask, do, etc. I have asked many for prayers and I know they are people I trust and are holding me up during this time, so I thank those of you for that. These people have also given me exceptional advice and scripture that has simply penetrated my heart recently. I find that as I ask God and seek him and question him some too, he punches me in the gut with songs, verses, stories, etc. For instance, there is a song that I'm really diggin on the radio and it is never played on Joy FM. Well, in the past week, I've probably heard it 3-4 times. And I've been focusing on Philippians 4:6-7 and I heard someone on the radio say it was there go to verse as well. Little things like that have been happening left and right. Through it all, I've been asking God for help and for opportunities. Not any specific help just help. God knows what I need, and I find he reveals himself to me when I am open and honest before him.
Through this time, I've found words and pieces of encouragement that I have truly gotten me through the days. Maybe you are going through something rough right now and you think no one is there. Or you don't see the light that God promises. Or you wonder if he truly does know best. I believe and can attest that he does but that doesn't mean my faith hasn't been trembling sometimes. Here are little nuggets of truth to help you that I have received or found in letters in the past few days....(identities remain anonymous to protect the innocent=)
**God's timing is perfect and God works for the good of those who love him.
**Use this time as being "on the anvil". God is shaping you and refining you for his purpose and for something great.
**Remember, God's time table usually is not close to our idea of when things should happen. You learn patience, trust, develop a deeper faith in God and His plan as you wait. Just be true to your belief in God's plan and will for your life. Try not to dwell on day-to-day feelings and changes....it is a journey with many side roads and small steps but keep your face and heart and soul pointed to Jesus. Trust and let Jesus comfort and encourage you.
**Challenge yourself to be better everyday - in your classes, in your dealings with others and in all of your decisions. Continue to display and use your strong faith in God-he has given you so much and remember of those that are give much-are asked much. Share your faith, you'll know when and where.
I hope these few thoughts help you in your journey and I have to admit, 3 of the 4 of these are from my family members. God has truly blessed me! Another side note, I ran this morning and really just poured out my heart to God. I talked to him like I would talk to you. Told him what I thought was crappy and what I'm thankful for and again, asked for him to hear me and for help. I also like to talk to my dad when I run. I promised him before he passed away, that I would talk to him so he'd better be with me. As I sat to write this before church today, I compiled all my advice in letters and in my brain and a random thought (how could I ever forget this) came into my mind. My dad's very last piece of advice for me was one word: PATIENCE. I was immediately overcome with emotion and a sense of release. Through all of scripture and my friends/family's advice, one word did it. Patience. Patience, for good things are coming. Patience, God is right where he wants you. Patience. Dad knew I would need it.
If I had to pick a verse for the day, here it is:
Colossians 1: 9-13
9 For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,[a] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[b] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light.
Through this time, I've found words and pieces of encouragement that I have truly gotten me through the days. Maybe you are going through something rough right now and you think no one is there. Or you don't see the light that God promises. Or you wonder if he truly does know best. I believe and can attest that he does but that doesn't mean my faith hasn't been trembling sometimes. Here are little nuggets of truth to help you that I have received or found in letters in the past few days....(identities remain anonymous to protect the innocent=)
**God's timing is perfect and God works for the good of those who love him.
**Use this time as being "on the anvil". God is shaping you and refining you for his purpose and for something great.
**Remember, God's time table usually is not close to our idea of when things should happen. You learn patience, trust, develop a deeper faith in God and His plan as you wait. Just be true to your belief in God's plan and will for your life. Try not to dwell on day-to-day feelings and changes....it is a journey with many side roads and small steps but keep your face and heart and soul pointed to Jesus. Trust and let Jesus comfort and encourage you.
**Challenge yourself to be better everyday - in your classes, in your dealings with others and in all of your decisions. Continue to display and use your strong faith in God-he has given you so much and remember of those that are give much-are asked much. Share your faith, you'll know when and where.
I hope these few thoughts help you in your journey and I have to admit, 3 of the 4 of these are from my family members. God has truly blessed me! Another side note, I ran this morning and really just poured out my heart to God. I talked to him like I would talk to you. Told him what I thought was crappy and what I'm thankful for and again, asked for him to hear me and for help. I also like to talk to my dad when I run. I promised him before he passed away, that I would talk to him so he'd better be with me. As I sat to write this before church today, I compiled all my advice in letters and in my brain and a random thought (how could I ever forget this) came into my mind. My dad's very last piece of advice for me was one word: PATIENCE. I was immediately overcome with emotion and a sense of release. Through all of scripture and my friends/family's advice, one word did it. Patience. Patience, for good things are coming. Patience, God is right where he wants you. Patience. Dad knew I would need it.
If I had to pick a verse for the day, here it is:
Colossians 1: 9-13
9 For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,[a] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[b] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Projects, projects, projects
I have about 10 projects on my to do list and don't really have any motivation to start and finish them. I have the materials, and everything I need for some of them, but it's so much easier to sit on the couch and surf the net, watch the Cardinals, or How I Met Your Mother episodes on Netflix then to seriously start them. Here's what's on my list (hopefully if I post them, I'll start them):
1. Pick out fabric for curtains in Nathan's studio (I think I have the right texture we want picked out but need to wait for Labor day sale on fabric)
2. Sew said curtains for Nathan's studio (probably have someone else sew them=)
3. Get another job to pay for said curtains (just kidding, but not really)
4. Put together my racing bib scrapbook (have all materials, just need to sit and do it)
5. Hang the holder that will hold all of my racing medals (it's sitting on the floor)
6. Do our Vegas vacation scrapbook (sitting on the floor with pictures and stickers)
7. Hire someone to reupholster a thrift find chair for Nathan's studio (have someone pegged but pricey)
8. Write Senior high health curriculum map for this fall (yes, school starts in about a week)
9. Create a center piece with the random wooden frame I just purchased (frame is sitting on our couch)
10. Sew a new table runner (fabric is sitting on the floor in our guest room in a bag)
--Okay, so there are 10 or less, but most require $$$ that I'm hesitant to spend on all this stuff, but better now than later.
Oh, also to read the entire book of Mark in the Bible tomorrow and this week.
Look for pictures coming up of before and after!!!!
1. Pick out fabric for curtains in Nathan's studio (I think I have the right texture we want picked out but need to wait for Labor day sale on fabric)
2. Sew said curtains for Nathan's studio (probably have someone else sew them=)
3. Get another job to pay for said curtains (just kidding, but not really)
4. Put together my racing bib scrapbook (have all materials, just need to sit and do it)
5. Hang the holder that will hold all of my racing medals (it's sitting on the floor)
6. Do our Vegas vacation scrapbook (sitting on the floor with pictures and stickers)
7. Hire someone to reupholster a thrift find chair for Nathan's studio (have someone pegged but pricey)
8. Write Senior high health curriculum map for this fall (yes, school starts in about a week)
9. Create a center piece with the random wooden frame I just purchased (frame is sitting on our couch)
10. Sew a new table runner (fabric is sitting on the floor in our guest room in a bag)
--Okay, so there are 10 or less, but most require $$$ that I'm hesitant to spend on all this stuff, but better now than later.
Oh, also to read the entire book of Mark in the Bible tomorrow and this week.
Look for pictures coming up of before and after!!!!
Friday, July 29, 2011
A revelation...not about running
For awhile I have struggled with the concept of obedience and doing things to please God. Here's my back and forth-ness - Am I do things for God (ie, read the Bible, go to church, tithe, teach Sunday school, etc) because it is simply my response to his love, grace and mercy and the impact it has had on my life? Or, am I doing them out of obligation and because "it's the Godly thing" to do? This is where I get in a rut. I love God and have a relationship with Jesus Christ, but sometimes I catch myself making a list of all the great things I do for him, thinking he might spare me from some earthly pain or maybe he won't challenge my faith any if I just lay low and play it cool. Does this make sense????
I worry that I do out of obligation and because I have a misconception that God will bless me more or love me more if do them. My aim is all wrong. I just wrapped up a Bible study this summer called "Becoming a Woman of Simplicity." It truly helped me to see how I can let my busy schedule rule my day and not have any time for God. There is a chapter in the book all about the good vs the best and how God deserves our very best. What hit me most was that all that I am doing for him isn't anything special....it's what he requires of me. Being a good person, giving to my church, and praying daily doesn't set me apart because they are all things....good things, mind you, but God expects them. What sets us apart is loving Jesus, living for him daily and telling others about the good news!
And another thing, if I'm honest with God that my aims feel off, he'll set them straight. Duh!
I worry that I do out of obligation and because I have a misconception that God will bless me more or love me more if do them. My aim is all wrong. I just wrapped up a Bible study this summer called "Becoming a Woman of Simplicity." It truly helped me to see how I can let my busy schedule rule my day and not have any time for God. There is a chapter in the book all about the good vs the best and how God deserves our very best. What hit me most was that all that I am doing for him isn't anything special....it's what he requires of me. Being a good person, giving to my church, and praying daily doesn't set me apart because they are all things....good things, mind you, but God expects them. What sets us apart is loving Jesus, living for him daily and telling others about the good news!
And another thing, if I'm honest with God that my aims feel off, he'll set them straight. Duh!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Running Tip #4 - Avoid that big thing in the road
So it's official. I have had my first bad fall while running....ever. And it's my own fault for many reasons. First of all, I got up at 5 am Sunday morning to run to "beat the heat". Nice try. I hit a wall thick hot air that morning. I still did 5 however. Then Monday came. Now, if I run one day, I take the next day off or do circuit training/weight lifting instead. But I got up and was awake before 8 and feeling like I could probably run. So I set out with a new route in mind that I was pretty excited about.
I was about 30 seconds into the run (no joke), when I saw a round thing on the sidewalk. I usually sidestep cracks or dead animals, rocks, etc. But for some reason, I thought this was rubber and I could step in it/near it. Bad idea. It was metal, and my foot got caught and I went tumbling. What makes it worse was that it was the intersection of 2 main roads in Belleville. Everyone going to work saw me, including the lawn maintenance guys working outside the city highway building for St. Clair County. I tumbled, skidded hard core and flipped over throwing my legs up in the air. There was no sense in being embarrassed...it freakin hurt. Next thing I know, an office lady came out and took me inside to clean up with bandages and neosporin. But sweat and bandaids don't really go together so I just tried to soak up as much blood as I could. So now I'm limping and have bloody knees, but hey, I'm out so what did I do? I ran 4 miles....bloody knees and all. I'm sure I got stares. And ya know how men get bloody nipples from running at times? Well, I thought maybe people would think that my version of that came on my knees.
So yesterday I couldn't walk down stairs very well or bend my knee but day 2 seems to be getting better. I can still do a full squat, which makes me think I don't have any serious knee damage. Just pus oozing and parts scabbing over. It's beautiful folks, let me tell you.
And yes, I worked out again today. Back to running tomorrow. I'm crazy and make boneheaded decisions sometimes, but hey, I'm a runner and not even the heat or a fall (aside from broken bones) will keep me away.
I was about 30 seconds into the run (no joke), when I saw a round thing on the sidewalk. I usually sidestep cracks or dead animals, rocks, etc. But for some reason, I thought this was rubber and I could step in it/near it. Bad idea. It was metal, and my foot got caught and I went tumbling. What makes it worse was that it was the intersection of 2 main roads in Belleville. Everyone going to work saw me, including the lawn maintenance guys working outside the city highway building for St. Clair County. I tumbled, skidded hard core and flipped over throwing my legs up in the air. There was no sense in being embarrassed...it freakin hurt. Next thing I know, an office lady came out and took me inside to clean up with bandages and neosporin. But sweat and bandaids don't really go together so I just tried to soak up as much blood as I could. So now I'm limping and have bloody knees, but hey, I'm out so what did I do? I ran 4 miles....bloody knees and all. I'm sure I got stares. And ya know how men get bloody nipples from running at times? Well, I thought maybe people would think that my version of that came on my knees.
So yesterday I couldn't walk down stairs very well or bend my knee but day 2 seems to be getting better. I can still do a full squat, which makes me think I don't have any serious knee damage. Just pus oozing and parts scabbing over. It's beautiful folks, let me tell you.
And yes, I worked out again today. Back to running tomorrow. I'm crazy and make boneheaded decisions sometimes, but hey, I'm a runner and not even the heat or a fall (aside from broken bones) will keep me away.
Day 2 pics......view at your own discretion
Friday, July 1, 2011
What kind of music do you run to?
Runner Tip #3 - How to select the right song list
When I first started running in college on the treadmills at Lantz (EIU is awesome!) I ran with a portable cd player and a mix cd I made from illegally downloaded songs! And that was in the year 2003! We've come a long way in our technology, especially in our devices that are super small and super convenient to run with! That said, I've had a Nike running device and 2 iPod's since then but any mp3 player works great. There frankly is no rhyme or reason to selecting music to exercise to but here is what I do....
First, in iTunes, I create a new playlist and label it, "Running 1" or "Indy Mini Mix" if I have a big race coming up. Then I scroll down through all of my music. You should really do this when you have 10-20 minutes. I sometimes sample them to see if they get me going at all. Some are fast songs and some are slow. If they are inspirational to me at all or have a good running beat to them, I drag them over to my playlist.
Now, let's say I'm done and have about 25-35 songs in my playlist (which is frankly a lot...I'm very picky). I then sample the beginning and ending of songs to see which ones I want in what order. This may be a little anal for some of you, but honestly, that's how they put recording artist's albums together. It does have a purpose. Music should flow from one song to the next....especially when you are running! If not, I find it jarring and I almost always skip the song when I end up running to it.
The type of music is also very important. I know someone who only listens to slow, mellow Christian music when he runs. That's great, but I need a little umph (sp?) once in a while. I have another friend who listens to sermons and various podcasts when he runs. Boring for me, but works great for him. Run to whatever gets you in the mood to run. There are some songs that come on, that I will hit repeat on 3-4 times during a run, because on that particular day, that song just has "it". I tend to be very eclectic in my running mix music.
Here is what is on my playlist right now and what I used for the Indy Half Marathon:
1 Chariots of Fire theme song - great for a beginning of any race
2. Pump It Up - don't know the artist but it's sort of a techno song (probably not the 90's song you are thinking of though)
3. Barefoot Blue Jean Night - Jake Owen - just a fun song
4. The Way - Jeremy Camp - when this song came on during the race, I ran to it 4-5 times because it had such amazing lyrics
5. Airplanes - B.o.B - sort of weird transition because this song has some cuss words in it but it is still a good fast paced song.
6. Christ is Risen - Matt Mahar
7. Happy Day - Tim Hughes
8. Separate Ways - Journey - great and a long song which helps to pass time
9. Jesus Paid It All - Kristian Stanfill
10. Forever Reign - Shane and Shane
11. Umbrella - Rihanna - guilty pleasure!
12. Your Grace is Enough - Matt Mahar
13. 4 Minutes to Save the World - Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake
14. Gone in 60 Seconds - Moby
15. I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles) - Steven Curtis Chapman
16. I Can Transform Ya - Chris Brown
17. In My Head - Jason Derulo
18. The Stand - Hillsong United
19. Baba O Riley - The Who - oldie but a goodie
20. Living on a Prayer - Bon Jovi
21. Salvation is Here - Hillsong United
22. How He Loves - David Crowder Band
If you know any of these songs, I can tell you I'm really into a repeating anthem that builds. For instance, Jesus Paid It All, "Oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead." That phrase is mighty and it repeats and builds over and over. Another one from Christs is Risen is "Oh death where is your sting? Oh hell, where is your victory? Oh church, come stand in the light. Our God is not dead, he's Alive! He's alive!"
Some of favorite Christian artists right now are: Matt Mahar, Hillsong United, Shane and Shane, Francesca Battistelli, The Afters, and Chris Tomlin. But I very much need some pop/rap songs in there for the beat. It's funny because sometimes I need a boost and other times I can forever to songs like How He Loves which has parts that are slow.
My advice is to pick what you like, can sing along to, and works for you. Afterall, you are the one it's for. If you are into podcasts, do that. If rap is your thing, put that on your mix! Run to what you like and make sure it flows so it's not just a mix of random stuff.
Hope this helps and happy running!
When I first started running in college on the treadmills at Lantz (EIU is awesome!) I ran with a portable cd player and a mix cd I made from illegally downloaded songs! And that was in the year 2003! We've come a long way in our technology, especially in our devices that are super small and super convenient to run with! That said, I've had a Nike running device and 2 iPod's since then but any mp3 player works great. There frankly is no rhyme or reason to selecting music to exercise to but here is what I do....
First, in iTunes, I create a new playlist and label it, "Running 1" or "Indy Mini Mix" if I have a big race coming up. Then I scroll down through all of my music. You should really do this when you have 10-20 minutes. I sometimes sample them to see if they get me going at all. Some are fast songs and some are slow. If they are inspirational to me at all or have a good running beat to them, I drag them over to my playlist.
Now, let's say I'm done and have about 25-35 songs in my playlist (which is frankly a lot...I'm very picky). I then sample the beginning and ending of songs to see which ones I want in what order. This may be a little anal for some of you, but honestly, that's how they put recording artist's albums together. It does have a purpose. Music should flow from one song to the next....especially when you are running! If not, I find it jarring and I almost always skip the song when I end up running to it.
The type of music is also very important. I know someone who only listens to slow, mellow Christian music when he runs. That's great, but I need a little umph (sp?) once in a while. I have another friend who listens to sermons and various podcasts when he runs. Boring for me, but works great for him. Run to whatever gets you in the mood to run. There are some songs that come on, that I will hit repeat on 3-4 times during a run, because on that particular day, that song just has "it". I tend to be very eclectic in my running mix music.
Here is what is on my playlist right now and what I used for the Indy Half Marathon:
1 Chariots of Fire theme song - great for a beginning of any race
2. Pump It Up - don't know the artist but it's sort of a techno song (probably not the 90's song you are thinking of though)
3. Barefoot Blue Jean Night - Jake Owen - just a fun song
4. The Way - Jeremy Camp - when this song came on during the race, I ran to it 4-5 times because it had such amazing lyrics
5. Airplanes - B.o.B - sort of weird transition because this song has some cuss words in it but it is still a good fast paced song.
6. Christ is Risen - Matt Mahar
7. Happy Day - Tim Hughes
8. Separate Ways - Journey - great and a long song which helps to pass time
9. Jesus Paid It All - Kristian Stanfill
10. Forever Reign - Shane and Shane
11. Umbrella - Rihanna - guilty pleasure!
12. Your Grace is Enough - Matt Mahar
13. 4 Minutes to Save the World - Madonna ft. Justin Timberlake
14. Gone in 60 Seconds - Moby
15. I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles) - Steven Curtis Chapman
16. I Can Transform Ya - Chris Brown
17. In My Head - Jason Derulo
18. The Stand - Hillsong United
19. Baba O Riley - The Who - oldie but a goodie
20. Living on a Prayer - Bon Jovi
21. Salvation is Here - Hillsong United
22. How He Loves - David Crowder Band
If you know any of these songs, I can tell you I'm really into a repeating anthem that builds. For instance, Jesus Paid It All, "Oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead." That phrase is mighty and it repeats and builds over and over. Another one from Christs is Risen is "Oh death where is your sting? Oh hell, where is your victory? Oh church, come stand in the light. Our God is not dead, he's Alive! He's alive!"
Some of favorite Christian artists right now are: Matt Mahar, Hillsong United, Shane and Shane, Francesca Battistelli, The Afters, and Chris Tomlin. But I very much need some pop/rap songs in there for the beat. It's funny because sometimes I need a boost and other times I can forever to songs like How He Loves which has parts that are slow.
My advice is to pick what you like, can sing along to, and works for you. Afterall, you are the one it's for. If you are into podcasts, do that. If rap is your thing, put that on your mix! Run to what you like and make sure it flows so it's not just a mix of random stuff.
Hope this helps and happy running!
Friday, June 24, 2011
27 Dresses anyone? Close, 27 thoughts on my birthday.
Today is my birthday. I turn 27 today and as my dad would say, "27 years ago today, at 10:01 am, on a sunny Sunday morning, we got our little girl." Sweet? Yes, but now that I'm 3 years away from 30...older is not always better. I'm not dreading the 30's, but feel as if I don't have much to show for it. I'm married, but no kids (and no, they aren't coming anytime soon). I've done a lot, but not everything I want to do in life. So here is a list of 27 thoughts, quandries, things I wish I knew, or things on my bucket list in no particular order as we all celebrate the day of my birth.
1. If you would have told me in high school that I would one day run 6 half marathons and 1 full marathon, I would have laughed in your face.
2. My mom is a closer friend to me today than anyone else.
3. Had I known my lame brothers would marry such awesome ladies, I may have been nicer to them growing up.=) Nancy and Jessie are seriously two of my bestest friends.
4. I want a black eye sometime in my life. No reason.
5. Blue is my favorite color
6. Life goal - raise $10,000 for Cancer Research
7. I used to want a boy first, then a girl. Now, being around Baby Leah, I could go either way.
8. Scooby Doo was/is my favorite cartoon character.
9. If someone honks at me running, I purposely don't look at them, but secretly feel special ;)
10. In my second life, I would love to be a professional organizer.
11. I love watching tennis, but am terrible at playing it.
12. Flying scares me, but I love traveling!
13. I love listening to Christian music when I run - truly pumps me up.
14. I'm digging one shoulder shirts and dresses.
15. I'm going to try out boxing this summer.
16. Hebrews and Romans are two of my favorite books in the Bible. You should read them.
17. My time at EIU were some of the greatest times I've ever had.
18. 9 more to go...wow, this is hard.
19. I'm really into garage sale shopping recently, but am guilty of buying "good deals" when I don't really need it.
20. I talk to God, Dad, and pray for others when I run.
21. Dexter is a guilty pleasure show of mine. It's so wrong, but so right on so many levels.
22. If I could run for a living, I would totally do it.
23. Wish I was back to being 23 =(
24. The number 24 is my vb #, our anniversary date, and my bday. Can anything get more perfect?!
25. If I didn't have Nathan, I would still sleep with a stuffed animal.
26. I will sit all day to watch an America's Next Top Model Marathon.
27. Share your faith when possible. You'll know when and where.
And there you have it. My random, nothingness list of thoughts on my bday. And okay, I stole my last one from my dad in a letter of advice to me before I went to college, but it's just plain good stuff, so I'm taking rights to it. And it has rang true in my life on multiple occasions.
Hug your kids tonight! Read them a book! (more thoughts from Dad=)
1. If you would have told me in high school that I would one day run 6 half marathons and 1 full marathon, I would have laughed in your face.
2. My mom is a closer friend to me today than anyone else.
3. Had I known my lame brothers would marry such awesome ladies, I may have been nicer to them growing up.=) Nancy and Jessie are seriously two of my bestest friends.
4. I want a black eye sometime in my life. No reason.
5. Blue is my favorite color
6. Life goal - raise $10,000 for Cancer Research
7. I used to want a boy first, then a girl. Now, being around Baby Leah, I could go either way.
8. Scooby Doo was/is my favorite cartoon character.
9. If someone honks at me running, I purposely don't look at them, but secretly feel special ;)
10. In my second life, I would love to be a professional organizer.
11. I love watching tennis, but am terrible at playing it.
12. Flying scares me, but I love traveling!
13. I love listening to Christian music when I run - truly pumps me up.
14. I'm digging one shoulder shirts and dresses.
15. I'm going to try out boxing this summer.
16. Hebrews and Romans are two of my favorite books in the Bible. You should read them.
17. My time at EIU were some of the greatest times I've ever had.
18. 9 more to go...wow, this is hard.
19. I'm really into garage sale shopping recently, but am guilty of buying "good deals" when I don't really need it.
20. I talk to God, Dad, and pray for others when I run.
21. Dexter is a guilty pleasure show of mine. It's so wrong, but so right on so many levels.
22. If I could run for a living, I would totally do it.
23. Wish I was back to being 23 =(
24. The number 24 is my vb #, our anniversary date, and my bday. Can anything get more perfect?!
25. If I didn't have Nathan, I would still sleep with a stuffed animal.
26. I will sit all day to watch an America's Next Top Model Marathon.
27. Share your faith when possible. You'll know when and where.
And there you have it. My random, nothingness list of thoughts on my bday. And okay, I stole my last one from my dad in a letter of advice to me before I went to college, but it's just plain good stuff, so I'm taking rights to it. And it has rang true in my life on multiple occasions.
Hug your kids tonight! Read them a book! (more thoughts from Dad=)
Sunday, June 19, 2011
A note on Father's Day
Today is Father's Day and a special day for Dad's everywhere. It's a day for cards, gifts, grilling, food, phone calls, and get togethers. This will be my 2nd Father's Day without my dad. Dad used to love this day. Basically any day where he was the center of attention, he didn't mind. Dad was seriously like a kid when it came to birthdays, Christmas, and Father's Day. He acted like it was no big deal, but he loved the gifts and thoughtfulness we put into him. A few years ago, we got him a brick that was inscribed and placed around the new Busch Stadium in St. Louis. When he opened it, he started to cry because he couldn't believe us kids and Mom had thought of him so much to do it. Finding the brick that year was awesome and brought up those emotions from him again.
My dad was an awesome man. He was stubborn, impatient, and could get easily frustrated, but he was always fair, gave you the truth, and always gave love. I miss him today, but not more than any other day. Today celebrates him and the great things he did and how we remember him. Now, I can thank God for two other great father's in my life: my brothers. Ryan has 3 yr old Lincoln and this is my oldest brother Tim's first father's day to Leah, who is an absolute joy. Both of them have little mechanisms of my dad, so it's like I get to see how we all grew up. They are wonderful and truly special dads.
In memory of my dad, hug your kids today and read them a book. Tell them you love them.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!! And now I leave you with a great picture of my dad....
My dad was an awesome man. He was stubborn, impatient, and could get easily frustrated, but he was always fair, gave you the truth, and always gave love. I miss him today, but not more than any other day. Today celebrates him and the great things he did and how we remember him. Now, I can thank God for two other great father's in my life: my brothers. Ryan has 3 yr old Lincoln and this is my oldest brother Tim's first father's day to Leah, who is an absolute joy. Both of them have little mechanisms of my dad, so it's like I get to see how we all grew up. They are wonderful and truly special dads.
In memory of my dad, hug your kids today and read them a book. Tell them you love them.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!! And now I leave you with a great picture of my dad....
Friday, June 17, 2011
We take the trips
Nathan and I just got back from a 6 day, 5 night stay in Punta Cana in the Dominican Republic. What a place! It was hot, hot, hot. The sun beating down each day and let me tell you, if you ever go....don't look at weather reports. They called for pouring down rain every day we were going to be there and there was barely any clouds in the sky. And we got baked! Literally, Nathan couldn't move for a few days from pain from his sunburn. But it was all worth it. The food, the drinks that kept coming, the beach, pool, sand, did I mention the food?! It was awesome and we dreaded coming back. Awesome-ist thing I did there - ran along the beach barefoot one morning around sunrise. Incredible experience. It's my goal to run every place I travel and so far, I have been successful, if you count the treadmills in Vegas. =)
Here are a few pics from our fab trip...be jealous...jk
Here are a few pics from our fab trip...be jealous...jk
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Frustrated
We haven't had air since Saturday. Although we have 1 window unit air conditioner (loaned from a friend), I am dying to have it fixed. So Monday we get the call that a guy will be here at 6:30 am today to fix it! What?! 6:30?! In the summer?! Needless to say, he comes, can't fix it. Call the electrician only for him to come out this afternoon, switch a blown fuse and basically tell us the first yey-hoo didn't know what the heck he was doing. So now, I'm missing my first night of Bible study to wait on this guy to come back for the 2nd time today sometime between 6-8. Will he show? Who knows, but I am frustrated because I have been at their mercy all day. Bottom line, when (and if) he returns tonight, I will be Christ-like, offering him water for his long day, and overly nice for his work. But I can be angry inside right?! Wow, I ask a lot of questions of myself.
Good/bad news - We leave for the Dominican Republic tomorrow! Sandy beaches, free drinks, sun, sun, sun. I can't wait to get baked. Just hope my air works when I get back. Another plus, the CMA's are on. So that passes the time.
Hope you're staying cool friends! Cheers!!!
Good/bad news - We leave for the Dominican Republic tomorrow! Sandy beaches, free drinks, sun, sun, sun. I can't wait to get baked. Just hope my air works when I get back. Another plus, the CMA's are on. So that passes the time.
Hope you're staying cool friends! Cheers!!!
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Beat the heat
Running Tip #3
How do you beat the heat during the summer months? If you're a teacher, you have 3 months to run at any time during the day, but not everyone has that luxury. Here's what I do...
1. If I'm not training, I slow down running to 2-3 days per week with 1 long run (around 60 min). It's more of a maintenance phase, but it keeps you moving without killing you.
2. Go WAY early or WAY late. If you have the energy and zeal, get up at the butt crack of dawn (around 4:30 am) and run without the sun. In Illinois, we're always going to have humidity so dream on about that one, but at least the sun won't be blazin then. OR, go way late (around 8:00). If you go any later, cars may not see you but again the sun will not be a factor.
3. Take breaks. If you don't run with water, and I don't, periodically stop and walk for a minute or two. If you're like me, you'll think, "Why am I stopping at 20 minutes when I can easily run over an hour?" Well, my friends, blame the heat and humidity.
**Most importantly, don't be down on yourself if you can't do what you've always done one day. You can still run and still run far. Extenuating circumstances do play a part, as in, the heat!
Here's to cooler runs!
How do you beat the heat during the summer months? If you're a teacher, you have 3 months to run at any time during the day, but not everyone has that luxury. Here's what I do...
1. If I'm not training, I slow down running to 2-3 days per week with 1 long run (around 60 min). It's more of a maintenance phase, but it keeps you moving without killing you.
2. Go WAY early or WAY late. If you have the energy and zeal, get up at the butt crack of dawn (around 4:30 am) and run without the sun. In Illinois, we're always going to have humidity so dream on about that one, but at least the sun won't be blazin then. OR, go way late (around 8:00). If you go any later, cars may not see you but again the sun will not be a factor.
3. Take breaks. If you don't run with water, and I don't, periodically stop and walk for a minute or two. If you're like me, you'll think, "Why am I stopping at 20 minutes when I can easily run over an hour?" Well, my friends, blame the heat and humidity.
**Most importantly, don't be down on yourself if you can't do what you've always done one day. You can still run and still run far. Extenuating circumstances do play a part, as in, the heat!
Here's to cooler runs!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Maybe you know what I'm talking about
Has this happened to you? You're going through something, whether it's what major to pick, who to date/marry, or what job to apply for and you need advice. Good advice that comes from someone you know, love, and trust. Everyone has something to say it seems and you have tons of things, while all great, thrown at you.
I've heard everything today. The background is that I'm in my 4th year of teaching and I'm part time. Small school, no money, and there you have it. I love the kids, people I work with, and what I do. And I'm good at it. But I am part-time and will probably be part-time for a while unless the state of Illinois randomly figures out how important education is. So today I went through all the self doubt of "Why am I not worth more to my school?," "Who is ever going to appreciate me?," and "What do I have to do to be full time?" I got tons of advice from every which way today from teachers, my mom, and my husband. But I needed 1 person's advice that I didn't get. My dad's.
Maybe you know what I mean...is there one person that you go to for laundry advice? Or maybe a relationship guru? Or a different person for every circumstance that could possibly go on in your life. For me, education was my dad's realm. I don't know how he did it. But he could say 2 words, and I'd believe it. That's all it took. Today, my mom gave great advice and so did my husband, but Dad is who I needed. And the reality set in that he isn't here. He's not here to see me grow in education, or try new jobs, and new coaching positions. But I feel him. I didn't get to talk to him today, but I heard him. I know what he would have said. "Kelli, do you have job?" (Kelli: "well, yeah.") "Than everything will work out. You need to settle down a little bit." Such simple words to my complicated state, and I would have had a much better day. It's days like today that it hits me that he is gone. I have pieces of him, but his physical being is not here. Today, I needed my dad. I need him every day quite frankly. Maybe you know what I'm talking about.
Hug your kids today in memory of my dad =)
I've heard everything today. The background is that I'm in my 4th year of teaching and I'm part time. Small school, no money, and there you have it. I love the kids, people I work with, and what I do. And I'm good at it. But I am part-time and will probably be part-time for a while unless the state of Illinois randomly figures out how important education is. So today I went through all the self doubt of "Why am I not worth more to my school?," "Who is ever going to appreciate me?," and "What do I have to do to be full time?" I got tons of advice from every which way today from teachers, my mom, and my husband. But I needed 1 person's advice that I didn't get. My dad's.
Maybe you know what I mean...is there one person that you go to for laundry advice? Or maybe a relationship guru? Or a different person for every circumstance that could possibly go on in your life. For me, education was my dad's realm. I don't know how he did it. But he could say 2 words, and I'd believe it. That's all it took. Today, my mom gave great advice and so did my husband, but Dad is who I needed. And the reality set in that he isn't here. He's not here to see me grow in education, or try new jobs, and new coaching positions. But I feel him. I didn't get to talk to him today, but I heard him. I know what he would have said. "Kelli, do you have job?" (Kelli: "well, yeah.") "Than everything will work out. You need to settle down a little bit." Such simple words to my complicated state, and I would have had a much better day. It's days like today that it hits me that he is gone. I have pieces of him, but his physical being is not here. Today, I needed my dad. I need him every day quite frankly. Maybe you know what I'm talking about.
Hug your kids today in memory of my dad =)
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Let me brag for a minute
Okay folks, my husband is pretty great but sometimes he just pulls stuff out of thin air that reminds me why I married him...
Today, he came home from Sunday evening church and had a bouquet of beautiful flowers with a card for me. What special occasion was it for you might ask? Well, I truly did not know. Usually around the time I start to complain that I haven't gotten flowers in a while, he had them planned for me anyways and there I go ruining the surprise.
So, the anniversary he was celebrating was that 1 year ago tomorrow, I officially "moved in" with him. We lived apart for the first 7 months of our marriage due to my job and my dad being sick, but on Memorial Day weekend of 2010, mom and I loaded up the van and the pick-up, and I was really leaving home. We've made our house in Belleville a home this past year and I've loved every minute of it. Being here to cook, clean, meet for dinner, sleeping in the same bed, etc. It made the first 7 months bittersweet, though I wouldn't change anything. It's our life and as Dad told me, "You and Nathan have to write your own story."
Today, he came home from Sunday evening church and had a bouquet of beautiful flowers with a card for me. What special occasion was it for you might ask? Well, I truly did not know. Usually around the time I start to complain that I haven't gotten flowers in a while, he had them planned for me anyways and there I go ruining the surprise.
So, the anniversary he was celebrating was that 1 year ago tomorrow, I officially "moved in" with him. We lived apart for the first 7 months of our marriage due to my job and my dad being sick, but on Memorial Day weekend of 2010, mom and I loaded up the van and the pick-up, and I was really leaving home. We've made our house in Belleville a home this past year and I've loved every minute of it. Being here to cook, clean, meet for dinner, sleeping in the same bed, etc. It made the first 7 months bittersweet, though I wouldn't change anything. It's our life and as Dad told me, "You and Nathan have to write your own story."
Thursday, May 26, 2011
The vacations keep coming...
We just got back from Vegas for Nathan's brother's wedding. Let me just say, I don't gamble or drink all that much, but I had a blast!!! The lights, things to see, music...truly amazing! I'm a small town girl but I love the big city life (for a while anyways). And best of all, there is no humidity! My hair stayed straight the whole day! Being there was great, however I find that a lot of people there are trying to fill a void in their life with money, sex, drugs, alcohol, only to be left completely empty. I loved the city but it reminded me of what to fill my life with. Anyways, here are some pics from the trip! Go if you can!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tips on Running #2
I'm on a roll, so might as well keep going! Plus, I'm stuck sitting on the floor in a church office waiting for the tornadoes to pass.
Tip #2
INSPIRATION
What is your inspiration? Do you just run to run or is there something behind your running? Or if you don't run, what is it that you do with something or someone in mind? Maybe it's your kids or a phrase or thinking, "Believe"! I have a friend who told me once that when her son his crying in the middle of the night she says to herself, "This too shall pass." So scripture is an inspiration to her. What drives you? What allows you to run through the pain in your back, knees, arms and the sweat, and how do you pick up your foot when it feels 100 pounds heavy.
My inspiration is really 3-fold.
#1 - Jesus. Hello? What is the title of this blog?! I think of Eric Liddell from Chariots of Fire when he said, "I believe God made me for a purpose, but he also made me fast. And when I run I feel His pleasure. " First of all, God did not make me fast, but I'm okay with that. But when I run, I feel like I am at home. I feel his pleasure in something that I can do with him and for him. A lot of people don't get that. They see running as running but when I run, I feel Jesus' power, strength, and determination. Heck, if he can hang on a cross and endure the suffering and pain of everyone's sins, I can surely run 1 more mile, and pick up my feet and put one in front of the other.
#2 - Hebrews 12:1 - This is my favorite scripture to think of when I run. I encourage you to have a scripture that you hide in your heart for times of joy, trouble, pain, and just to have! This is my "go to" verse. It says -
1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
I included verses 2 and 3 because they are just plain true and awesome, but focus on "the race marked out for us". God has set the path before me in a race. He has marked it off and surrounded us with help (witnesses). Get rid of everything that holds you back. For me, it's the lack of sleep, injury, poor diet, late start, etc. Get rid of all that and run the race he set before you. When you do something for Christ and with Christ, nothing gets better. And you will be amazed at what you can do and accomplish through and for him. For myself, I went from a 2:11 half marathon time to a 1:53 time in 4 years. And I'm not fast.
#3 - My dad. Dad just started running again in 2007 and even ran a 5k in a really good time (32 minutes but don't quote me on that). Although I'm convinced he ran it for the free beer! He told me after that he just wanted to prove to himself that he could do it. And my dad did anything he set his mind too. He gave the best advice and was so wise. Before he died he told me, "I know you'll keep running." He was right and I was able to write him a letter his last week with us telling him that when I run, I would think of him and talk to him. And he'd better be with me! And oddly enough, he is. I can't really explain and I don't really believe in ghosts/spirits, but Dad talks to me. I hear him and feel him. When I ran my PR 1:53 in Indy this year, I heard him say, "Kel, you know you gotta run this under 2 hours." That was an order and I felt alive after hearing that. We had a special connection and I rely on him still to this day.
Whatever you do, do it well. Whatever you do, do it for the Lord. He will open doors and allow you opportunities that you could never imagine (PR 1:53!!!). Find something that gives you inspiration and do it with excellence. I always tell people that "I'm not a runner", but I still keep running.
Hug your kids.
Tips on Running #1
I decided to give tips on my thoughts on running. What I wear, listen to, how I train, and what races are "must do's". Maybe it will help someone out there. Maybe it's just for my eyes, but I enjoy helping and teaching others about quite possibly my favorite pastime.
Tip #1
Shoes!!!
Let me first say, I have a shoe problem. Counting flip flops and slippers, I have over 70 pairs. I know, insane, but I just can't resist them. Heels, sandals, tennis shoes, etc. I love, love, love shoes. They make or break an outfit, in my opinion. But when it comes to running shoes, I run in 1 pair and 1 pair only. I sometimes buy 2 at time to replace the ones that wear out.
The best running shoe I have found are Asics GT 2100 series running shoes. They are the best. They provide stability and comfort. I have special made insoles due to my flat feet which fit in perfectly. I replace shoes every 300-400 miles to keep from being injured and always buy the newest in the series. For example, I used to have 2140's and now have the 2150's. Same shoe, newer number. They are affordable also (around $90).
**Mega tip - If you buy the shoe as the newer number in the series is coming out, you can get the shoe for around $70 online either at Dick's Sporting Goods or Sports Authority.
**Bonus tip - If you frequently run and run in races, look at what the elite athletes run in or even just the people around you. Most of what I see are Asics or Saucony. Nike's are not very good to run in, period.
Tip #1
Shoes!!!
Let me first say, I have a shoe problem. Counting flip flops and slippers, I have over 70 pairs. I know, insane, but I just can't resist them. Heels, sandals, tennis shoes, etc. I love, love, love shoes. They make or break an outfit, in my opinion. But when it comes to running shoes, I run in 1 pair and 1 pair only. I sometimes buy 2 at time to replace the ones that wear out.
**Mega tip - If you buy the shoe as the newer number in the series is coming out, you can get the shoe for around $70 online either at Dick's Sporting Goods or Sports Authority.
**Bonus tip - If you frequently run and run in races, look at what the elite athletes run in or even just the people around you. Most of what I see are Asics or Saucony. Nike's are not very good to run in, period.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Kelli - 1, Raccoon - 0
Got up today to run. Yes, I know it's only been a few days since my half and PR, but I have to get back into it or I will go stir crazy. Word to the wise, don't do a kettlebell workout with a 20lb weight before running 4 miles the next day. The insides and back of my legs are very sore and tight. It's definitely been more difficult walking due to this. Anyways, got up around 5, which is normal, and hit the road. I run the same road all the time so today to switch up the scenery, I ran on the opposite of the street. Daredevil, I know!
So I'm about 5 minutes in and I see a raccoon crossing the major road in my direction. I see these fellas quite often on my morning runs, but any encounter is one too many. So this guy crosses the road, stops at the edge of the sidewalk which I am quickly approaching and and stares at me. Like, "Bring it sista". I yelled, "Move raccoon, you're annoying," clapped my hands and he still stared with those glossed over eyes. So I just kept on coming and he kept on staring until he finally got the sense to dart off into someone's yard or garbage. Whatever raccoon. We will meet again and I'm sure I will win again. Stay off my sidewalk.
So I'm about 5 minutes in and I see a raccoon crossing the major road in my direction. I see these fellas quite often on my morning runs, but any encounter is one too many. So this guy crosses the road, stops at the edge of the sidewalk which I am quickly approaching and and stares at me. Like, "Bring it sista". I yelled, "Move raccoon, you're annoying," clapped my hands and he still stared with those glossed over eyes. So I just kept on coming and he kept on staring until he finally got the sense to dart off into someone's yard or garbage. Whatever raccoon. We will meet again and I'm sure I will win again. Stay off my sidewalk.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Another PR!
On April 2nd, I ran the Springfield, IL Half Marathon in 1 hour 55 minutes, a personal best for me. It was a cool 40 degrees at start, with a few big hills, and I was bookin it. Never knew I could go that fast when I didn't really train for that.
This last weekend, I ran Indy Mini for the 3rd time and yet again, hit a personal record of 1 hour 53 minutes and 13 seconds. Avg pace of 8:38. My first mile was 9:57. Yikes, somebody needed to pick it up. So I did and figured I would run as fast as I could for as long as I could. Running on the speedway is truly an adventure and I felt like I was sprinting it. I think I played Jeremy Camp's, "The Way" 5-10 times on that track. There's a line that says, "You poured out all your blood and set the captives free." Wow. Just picturing that gave me an extra step. It was truly incredible and I definitely had Dad and Jesus with me that morning. I'm paying for it today with massive amounts of back pain, but God gave me a gift to run and I run for him....hence, the blog title.
This last weekend, I ran Indy Mini for the 3rd time and yet again, hit a personal record of 1 hour 53 minutes and 13 seconds. Avg pace of 8:38. My first mile was 9:57. Yikes, somebody needed to pick it up. So I did and figured I would run as fast as I could for as long as I could. Running on the speedway is truly an adventure and I felt like I was sprinting it. I think I played Jeremy Camp's, "The Way" 5-10 times on that track. There's a line that says, "You poured out all your blood and set the captives free." Wow. Just picturing that gave me an extra step. It was truly incredible and I definitely had Dad and Jesus with me that morning. I'm paying for it today with massive amounts of back pain, but God gave me a gift to run and I run for him....hence, the blog title.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Going to Indy
Today, Nathan and I are heading to Indy for my 6th half marathon! I am pumped, but all of a sudden, nervous. WhY?! I've ran this course 2 times and it's flat, and weather is in our favor. No clue. Just jittery nerves. Maybe because I haven't been in bed before 10:30 this entire week and I want to break 2 hours! It should be great seeing my aunt and uncle, cousins, and my bro and sis-in-law who will be running as well. His first race, her second. Plus, we're picking up my bro as a stowaway on the way. Love road trips! Even if it puts miles on my car =(
When I run, I cling to several Bible verses. The one that hits me today is from Hebrews.
Hebrews 12:1-3 -
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."
Consider him who did it all and did it all for YOU, so that you can keep going and finish the race set before you. Throw off the troubles of this world, and Satan's remarks, and run (literally) with perseverance the race laid out beforehand. It is ordained and set by God, so run it for him. Don't lose hope. Don't give up. I hope these words catch you today and help you with whatever is being thrown at you today.
Hug your kids and your moms this weekend!!!!
When I run, I cling to several Bible verses. The one that hits me today is from Hebrews.
Hebrews 12:1-3 -
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."
Consider him who did it all and did it all for YOU, so that you can keep going and finish the race set before you. Throw off the troubles of this world, and Satan's remarks, and run (literally) with perseverance the race laid out beforehand. It is ordained and set by God, so run it for him. Don't lose hope. Don't give up. I hope these words catch you today and help you with whatever is being thrown at you today.
Hug your kids and your moms this weekend!!!!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Let's be real honest here for a second
I don't blog. No one even reads my page. But I feel like I should because I get so much out of those that I follow and others. I don't have an exciting life, no kids, I try to craft but really don't, and I have no clue how to use this blog. But I'll keep posting for anyone and no one at the same time. This should be fun.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
It hits you like a ton of bricks
I miss my dad today. A lot. Don't get me wrong, I miss him everyday. I miss him every moment. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him or what he would have said or the advice he would give me. Sometimes it just hits me, and I start crying like a blubbering baby. The other day, it was song lyrics that got me. Today, it's knowing he wasn't at my wedding, or won't ever meet my perfect niece Leah, or my future children. That he is so much a part of me that a part of me feels dead or missing without him here. Gosh, life sucks sometimes, and I am the first to say that I trust God, but sometimes I wish he'd give me what I want.
I want my dad back. I want an "easy" life that does not exist. A life without trials and pain. A life that God intended us to have. I live for the day when I feel like God has put this whole back together in my life. And believe, sooner would be better. I can't just be randomly crying all the time right? God has blessed me and my family a ton, but I'd give back all the blessings to have Dad back. I have learned to perfect my bargaining skills and I keep thinking that maybe someday, God will honor my requests. Because I still want him back, I want to feel whole again.
Yes, God is good all the time, but there are times I doubt his fairness or goodness because pain sucks. It is a hurt I have known in and out but have to get up and cover up most days. I will never turn my back on God, but I would love to understand the master plan some days.
If you are struggling with loss, whether a pet or a family member or a relationship lost, believe that God is near even when you don't feel him because maybe he will change your heart.
Hug your kids.
I want my dad back. I want an "easy" life that does not exist. A life without trials and pain. A life that God intended us to have. I live for the day when I feel like God has put this whole back together in my life. And believe, sooner would be better. I can't just be randomly crying all the time right? God has blessed me and my family a ton, but I'd give back all the blessings to have Dad back. I have learned to perfect my bargaining skills and I keep thinking that maybe someday, God will honor my requests. Because I still want him back, I want to feel whole again.
Yes, God is good all the time, but there are times I doubt his fairness or goodness because pain sucks. It is a hurt I have known in and out but have to get up and cover up most days. I will never turn my back on God, but I would love to understand the master plan some days.
If you are struggling with loss, whether a pet or a family member or a relationship lost, believe that God is near even when you don't feel him because maybe he will change your heart.
Hug your kids.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Hello Vacation!
Let me introduce my 2 favorite little people
Ladies and gents....my niece and nephew. Lincoln Henry Ervin will be 3 in May and Leah Elizabeth Ervin was born on February 8th. Two perfect little joys in my life!
Will I really stick with this???
I started a blog (kinda) around the time my life was taking a crazy, hectic turn. Nathan and I had just bought a house, we were getting married in a few months, and my dad was losing his battle with cancer. All of that said, it's been almost 2 years since that time, and I feel compelled to start up again.
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